Man, I really don’t write here much anymore huh. To be honest, Claude has really replaced this whole thing for me, which I think has some upsides and some downsides that I’m not gonna write about right now.
I now have, essentially, a girlfriend (we’re not “official” yet). Bunch of stuff to say here! Plausibly too much to say, & too just “me explicating stuff that I already know”.
(There’s something pretty noteable going on here, that something so profound and lovely and vivid is not really worth writing about. I guess I spent a lot of time writing on this website when I was trying to make sense of stuff, and a healthy relationship just like, makes a lot of sense. I don’t need to figure it out in writing - it is just very lovely and good.)
We just finished watching season 3 of The White Lotus (we watched season 2 a month or so ago). I really like how the show shows the different worldviews, life philosophies of different people. How the 3 siblings all have different core values, axioms, stances, probably mostly downstream of their own dispositions.
What’s the name of the Heidegger thing where he said we’re all anxious because at root we know that we have no grounding, nothing to hold onto? Claude says:
That’s Angst (anxiety/dread), and the underlying condition is what Heidegger calls groundlessness or the confrontation with the “nothing” (das Nichts).
I’m currently seeing people sense-make much more than I used to.
Ok well… no energy for this.
Misc things
Stretching
My body is the most un-stretched it has ever been. I’m close to the most muscular I’ve ever been, which is good, but also my back has never been this fucked up. I think my traps and rhomboids in particular and carrying a lot of tension from spending a lot of time at a desk that is just a bit too damn high. And I just can’t seem to muster the energy to get a regular stretching routine going — it somehow feels like an intractable problem, or yeah, that I just don’t have faith that I’ll be able to stretch my way out of it. Which is probably silly: surely 30-60 mins a day for a fortnight/month would make an enormous difference.
Katseye
I’m surprised I don’t have a page about my parasocial media consumption yet.
From searching, the word parasocial does appear in How modern life keeps us unconscious and un-agentic, Should I follow some of the prescriptions of Bonesaw?, Should I value in-person connection highly? (first pass)
Kpop groups are very intentionally manufactured to be parasocial goldmines (it’s 11pm and I cba to try to write well right now).
[Will return to this…]
My ~girlfriend has experienced kensho
That’s crazy dude
Our relationship is just wow