Quick brain dump on Tuesday morning before call w/ Roger
- How yesterday went
- Did 2 x 1 hour somatic connection open awareness sits
- 1st one, noticed some stuff, was good, but maybe felt fairly subtle and therefore attention drifted
- 2nd one, somatic sensations felt much more present → triggered w/ grumpiness, felt much easier to stay with
- Quite triggered at points throughout the day, mostly around feeling rushed, short on time, story that all I do is work & do housework → good to enter the second sit at 21:30 with this energy and investigate it
- Definitely heightened ability to see this stuff happening live and not take it as seriously
- Ability to see annoyed thought + associated sensations, then to have the thought drop away when I become mindful, then realise that I’m still holding the sensations in place (like a grumpy look on my face), and realising that I can drop it
- Also had a 10 minute call with Wystan where we said “but who are you really??” and giggled at me when I didn’t get it 🙄