Baseline two weeks before: zero sits per day.
Sources: iAm app (18 sits, 306.9 min — full API pull) and Insight Timer (5 sits, 112 min — CSV export).
The strong-determination sit replaces that day’s Sit 1 on Thursday and Saturday — Roger’s cap of 1–2× a week.
Curriculum v2 went live from Wednesday 12. Monday and Tuesday were pre-schedule ramp days. On call days, the guided practice on the call stands in for that day’s morning block.
Minutes of tracked practice per day (iAm + Insight Timer). Sunday total is partial — evening sits still pending at review.
Hollow grey = planned slot (from Wed, when the schedule went live). Filled blue circle = iAm sit. Filled blue diamond = Insight Timer sit. Mon–Tue were ramp days with no fixed slots.
“I’ve probably gone kinda overboard with breath meditation via the iAm app b/c it’s cool… I feel like I went kinda off-piste / got kinda nerd-sniped vs what I was meant to be doing.”
“wtf lol… think this is partially because I was breathing way slower.”
“Shaky hip flexors for the last ~10 mins, painful!!… Proud of how it went.”
Blue = aversion share of noted moments (grey = neutral / craving). 116–278 notes per sit.
Friday’s sit scored 96% on the count itself — yet much of it felt like mind-wandering. The number and the felt attention didn’t agree.
That gap motivated Breath Counting Plus — a new session type adding a “Mindful Breath” signal alongside the count, so attention can be checked, not just arithmetic.
Merged into the open-source iAm app as PR #31 (session type) and PR #32 (a graph fix).
“The idea of doing this for an hour feels aversive b/c boring, non-profound…”
“I think I just need to come out as having alexithymia. Like I genuinely don’t have many sensations in my body.”
“Well, let’s just look a bit closer. Maybe what I’m doing is expecting it to be really big and obvious. That was the move. Once I dropped the size requirement, there was a bunch of subtle stuff.”
“So: not empty. Just quiet.”
“It felt like I was seeing active inference. A grabby, willing-things-to-be-different thing, directly observed.”
“It took about 10 minutes to get through the doubt and scepticism, and then I got engaged and found it fruitful and interesting. That’s a pretty big win.”
“Key finding: I can’t hold a thought and its soma at the same time — I collapse into the thought, then catch the residual somatics on waking up.”
“Realising that this practice is helpful for — I start with automatic aversion to anything negative, and over time I can just let negative valence things be negative valence with less aversion towards them.”
“Ok I think I confused myself and started using ‘pushing away’ to mean ‘negative valence’ and ‘pulling toward’ to mean ‘positive valence’ for a while, kind of labelling the First Dart rather than the presence of a Second Dart 👀 — but this was still really cool!”
Definitions question to settle: first dart vs. second dart labelling in Reactivity Noting.
Keep the 2h/day structure for week 2 — and deliberately re-centre on the somatic sense-gate hour, the practice that produced this week’s one real breakthrough.